I am rapidly settling in. I am headed back to T-town to have a moving sale this weekend. I am not happy about going, but it is part of what I have to do. I have met a few people here and I think Atlanta suits me. So here I will be for a while. By the grace of GOD I am sane and alllmost contant.

Happy 4th to all. Today I found a Church that feels like home to me. YEHHHHH!! Metro North.Lots of music. I feel so good tonite. My mother called today. First good conversation with her since I arrived in Atlanta. My babygirl is heading back to T-town for a visit. I think I will take advantage of some alone time. Clean and sober another day. Its getting easier. Trusting in the fact I cant make this happen on self will is almost a relief today. Praying for better days to ome. May God bless and keep you all.

I woke up this morning to GODs grace. What a way to wake up. Its all uphill from here. Its hard for me sometimes to trust in that, but its getting easier as i go. The one thing that surprised me most in treatment,is that it had little to do with the drugs. It was about me, dealing with the past,present and future. I was given tools to use to help me do that dealing in a healthy way. I just have to use the tools. I think this is like everything else I take on that is new to me. I have to practise to get it done. The thing is, this is not a new hobby, its my life. And everything I ever new before about survival is not healthy.So here i go.I am already knee deep, I mize well take the plunge!!

WOW!! WHAT A DAY.I THINK IF FIGURED IT OUT. BUT THAT ALWAYS GET ME IN TROUBLE.HA HA. THIS LESSON WAS TO COMPLETELY TRUST IN AND RELY ON HIM. NO ONE OR ANYTHING ELSE. GROWING PAINS. I THINK I ALMOST GOT IT. WE WILL SEE. IT WAS A MUCH BETTER DAY.I STILL FEEL A LITTLE LIKE A FISH OUT OF WATER,BUT I AM CLEAN AND SOBER. AND TRUSTING MORE IN GOD TODAY THAN YESTERDAY.SO WITH THAT, ITHINK I WILL BORE YALL WITH ANOTHER POEM. I WROTE THIS ONE WHEN I WAS 14,I THINK. ITS ONE OF MY FAVORITES.

BEAUTY AND THE SOUL

BEAUTY TOUCHED HER HAIR AND EYES;STILL SHE TOLD LIES
BEAUTY TOUCHED HER LIPS AND NECK;STILL SHE WAS A WRECK
BEAUTY TOUCHED HER ARMS AND SHOULDERS;STILL SHE GREW COLDER
BEAUTY TOUCHED HER CURVES AND FINGERS;STILL HER WORDS WERE LIKE STINGERS
BEAUTY TOUCHED HER LEGS AND FEET;STILL HER MIND GREW WEAK
FOR BEAUTY FORGOT ITS MOST IMPORTANT GOAL;BEAUTY FORGOT TO TOUCH THAT YOUNG GIRLS SOUL.

HOPE U LIKE IT.









SAVAGE IS THE BEAST,BLACK IS HIS HEART.
HIS ONLY DESIRE IS TO TAKE ME APART.
BUT SURVIVE I MUST, FOR IN GOD I WILL TRUST.